i noe its impossible btwn us bt smhw i'm stil holdin on.. *whacks myself on the head* i'm stupid..i'm so bloody stupid..what's all that shit abt me bein damn smart n crap? how smart can i be wen i'm holdin on to smthng i noe is hopeless?u noe kris..ure always laffin at me tt i'm stupid..n i'm always rebutting..bt now..i'm nt rebutting..i agree wif u..i'm stupid..i'm so bloody stupid i cant believe such a stupid person actualli exists..i knew frm the start tt nth wld cum out of it..yet i tried to make things happen..and now things are worse dan ever..im sorry ure bein gossiped abt..im sorry i dragged u into this..i'm sorry i screwed our frenship..im sorry now u find it so hard to strike a convo wif me..im sorry now everythings screwed btwn us..what seemed so easy b4..seems impossible to me now..i dunno wut to sae wen i see u..i dunno wut to do wen im arnd u..im sorry im so bad at juggling btwn a frenship n a crush..im sorry i sacrificed frenship in the name of love..i haf a million and one things to say sorry for..but i cant list all million and one..so im sayin..im sorry for everything i've done to you..i hope you'll forgive me but if you dont i understand..i realli do..i know its wrong to be the way i am..i know its wrong to feel the way i do..i know we'll nv go beyond frens..i know im jus torturing myself..i know i'm putting you thru a difficult time as well..i know im sarificing frenship for nth in return..i know all this..i know it too well..but at the end of the day..i'm still clinging on..you always laughed at me wen i proclaimed myself a genius..now listen up..I'M STUPID.

life's a box..i've been in there too long..im tired..im gettin out..

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